January 2012
11 posts
lies. lies lies
been attempting to do some damage-control on my life…by doing absolutely nothing. been make lists after lists and yet still having very little accomplished.
falling sick. at least now i have a reason for not doing anything
i have died everyday waiting for you////////
‘love dares you to change our way of caring about ourselves’
waiting for something interesting/ life-altering to befall upon me so that i will get off my lazy ass and do something about my very path3t1c life zz
walk off the earth
from now on i will never, EVER
it can't rain forever
uninspired. uninspired. uninspired.
On Christ the Solid Rock, I stand/ All other...
if this is your idea of a compromise, i am giving more than i should. and i will stop, from today onwards
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days here have been lonely and unproductive. been bumming around trying to find a school but so far plans for the year are still rather uncertain. i miss my friends. i need to start getting my life back on track and avoiding all resposibilities, i also need God back in my life. and...
blue
once again falling into the cracks of my imperfections
and somehow or other, i always come back to You
hi .
if you love someone let them go
this is twice now
December 2011
13 posts
‘spineless dreamers hide in churches’
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new year resolutions:
learn to cook eat egg in the mornings/ take my vitamin e and c daily
achieve my bikini body HA/ keep fit
pick up sth (figure skate or drums or make up or dance or driving or singing)
drink 8 cups of water everyday
better time management i.e stop being late
bday cards ON TIME
do qt everyday
have a budget and manage it
STOP LYING
i'm not wild, i'm just free spirited
‘we found love in a hopeless place’ this must have been the theme song of the two years of jc life i had haha
the people i love are the people who understand my believe of friendship having expiry dates, and yet still learn to cherish what remaining time we have and try to extend it for a bit
on a separate note, i am slowly beginning to remember how it’s like to be alone once...
home is where the heart is
i guess i was right, that i’d only come to appreciate singapore once i have lived elsewhere
this is my 6th day in indo, time passed by quite quickly since i’ve been occupying myself a lot. i thought i’d found more answers by now, or at least clear my head, but instead there is so much more on my mind. every night i dream of people and things and i wake up, startled. i guess...
why are we even doing this.
“KennethAidanFoo says: (12:41:23 AM)
i like the notion of being selfish with my...”
– (via eletheowl)
let's see how far we've come
at the end of the day, it’s always back to this line
i am finally back in indo, am still suffering from the hangover of leaving sg for good. back to this space where i have come to realise is indeed my emotional wasteland where i dump all my negativity. and since after promos i havent been posting much because i’ve been ~LIVIN’ IT. but honestly it gets tiring, and obligating....
going round in circles, and coming back to square...
this is why i don’t wear my heart on my sleeve
enough is enough.
‘It’s ironic how something that has saved me from insanity so many times will kill me later on in life.’
deja vu
fell in love with the wrong person/ at the wrong time
we found love in a hopeless place
13/12/11, Tues call tang and hafiz-.- disconnect electricity meet matthew eva spencer for dinner
14/12/11, Wed claim cheque & settle all the bills transfer money lunch with sm! clarissaaaa :) ladiez night!
15/12/11, Thurs dinner w caleb (treat?), 6 @dhoby anf opening
16/12/11, Fri jon and haiks mavis 7 @ amk matt bishan tk house
17/12/11, Sat church noon visit nath @ massimo marcus...
because in time, we will all forget
and everything will fade into the grey of memory
happier
because i’m going to leave soon, i feel less of a need to hide myself. i have stopped finding the need to be remembered or significant; the fear of being forgotten has lost its sting
i feel free, i feel free
November 2011
17 posts
we'll be alright~~~
MONDAY: CALL AUNTY LS, doctor appt @1.15, call minghua ahyi, packkk
TUESDAY: PACK, clarissa’s house (racks+letter), airport, cake, celebrateeeeee
WEDNESDAY: cheque, starhub bills, check house, yn’s b’day at tamp (xe slippers, jill clothes, kaye $), ladies night!
THURSDAY: lg @ 3.30, shuz&az dimsum @ chinatown
FRIDAY: sam&my, watch apple of the eye hop w xe
...
white lies are still lies
because i thought everything was in control and if i didnt say anything, it’d still be okay
i should have realised that it has made me become unknowingly manipulative, with no bad intentions that is
i am sorry that i wasnt the daughter you expected; not the way you wanted me to turn out to become
i am puzzled
but action speaks louder than words
Anon: What are you good at?
Me: Giving politically correct answers.
excuses
clarissa: you’re still very confused. everyone knows what kind of person you are, except for yourself.
i think i am simply in denial of my mediocrity.
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is it just me or does everyone else too find it difficult to know the difference between what is seemingly acceptable, and what is truly acceptable duly to themselves. does anyone even still care?
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do we have to make sense out of...
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what am i to do without my to-do-lists?
after much bumming around, in the remaining days of
THIS WEEK:
to do list:
dentist makeupforever course make nic’s mixtape CHEQUE KNNCCB strawberries with baking soda jontang and hafiz $ research on college NIC’S BIRTHDAY PRESENT XMAS PREZZZZZZ shepherd thing luc’s pres jeff’s pres
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books to read:
DERREN BROWN
it’s kind of a funny story
a clockwork orange
autobiography of marilyn monroe
the picture of dorian gray
11.11.11
1. Ms Ng called to say that i didn’t clear promos because i got 34 rp -__- HOW COULD I HAVE MISCOUNTED. FTS
2. my neighbours complained bout the noise at my house when my friends came over to have a few drinks, and called the landlord who then came over at 4am and saw my friends, not so much me, in their messy state.
3. they called my mum the very next morning.
4. mum flew over that very...
all that is gold is rusting
i miss you dad. i finally do.
'you cant be wise and in love at the same time'
lately i’ve been feeling the need to make all sorts of list. and it kinda feels like i’m compartmentalizing my brain.. and i like it, because i like being in control :-)
shall keep this post short because lately i’ve been unable to write, unable to narrate everything that’s happening, it’s passing so quickly and it feels like i’m ruining it if im unable to...
sweet disposition
wednesday: make ic gym
thursday: visit dad’s grave shopping at itc
friday: chuchu’s birthday party shop b’day dinner read
saturday: mani pedi buy opi & basketball read
sunday: facial out for steamboat
monday: shop w mumsy @ GI! supermarket
tuesday: family dinner pictures
wednesday: back back back dinner w far and kat FYEAHLADIESNIGHT
October 2011
17 posts
i don't know why you say goodbye i say hello
we brushed shoulders whilst you were holding someone elses hand
so i let it pass
and it did.
all glory goes to You
should i stay or should i leave?
“I’m a crepe,
i’m a weirdough
what the hell am i doughing here, ...”
– one of my fav song (go figure!)
hello hurricane
is it possible that we are the same person, just in different bodies, and you’re on the other end of the globe?
youth is all about FUNFUFNFUFNFUFNFNNFNNN, with a tinge of deception
i want my voice back
we talk about what happened and tried to keep a straight face
cancelled all my plans for today, so i can finally stay home and sort out my thoughts. i just dont feel okay.
Rome wasn't built in a day
monday: work @10 till 6, $6/hr meet the guys
tues: work? sl33p
wed: NOTHING YAY prep for tmr’s worship pay the bill$
thurs: lg @ 10 paranormal activities 2 pay rent again meet ens sort out songs
fri: GETTING BACK RESULTS :S
sat: CHEQUE (URGENT!) church buy honeybronze halloween YAY
sunday: book air tickets jog for an hour :) QT
monday: buy storybks chinese doc @ 3.10...
nothing compares to Your embrace
this space seems like an emotional wasteland where all i do is dumb my negativity and misery
life’s been pretty carefree and enjoyable in general. is it abnormal that whenever i feel happy, i feel like i’m floating? and when i’m back down to earth, the weight of reality seems to crash down on me, all at once. and that’s how i am feeling now.
i. need. clarity.
“Why so ego?
one must define oneself against the vapidity of one’s life”
– jimmychen
exercise routine (DON'T JUDGE ME)
arms: do 10-15 reps, 3 sets w 30s break in between
push ups (20s, 10s break: repeat 8x for 4 mins) superman [to strengthen core muscle]
abs: 3 sets, 45s rest in between, 3-4 times per week
rolls ups (15x) planks (60s) *eat 6 almonds per day
Scarlett Johannson Butt: do 3-5 times- total body strength routine http://www.youtube.com/user/SarahsFabChannel
speed squats (20 reps) reverse lunges...