1. Ms Ng called to say that i didn’t clear promos because i got 34 rp -__- HOW COULD I HAVE MISCOUNTED. FTS
2. my neighbours complained bout the noise at my house when my friends came over to have a few drinks, and called the landlord who then came over at 4am and saw my friends, not so much me, in their messy state.
3. they called my mum the very next morning.
4. mum flew over that very night.
5. got fucked big time. now i have to shift out by the end of this month and find a guardian to live with.
6. curfew of 12 imposed. right.
7. mum’s meeting my form teacher on weds. wait till she sees my attendance. DAFUCK
yup so this has been life for the past few days. 2 actually. my mum’s still ignoring me and the tension in the house is so thick that i could slice through it with a knife :S well i can totally understand why, but her unreasonable-ness (there is no such word, i know) actually lessens my guilt. because she doesnt try to understand this culture, and her expectations of me are always nothing less than the standards of that in her world of holy101. i don’t mean that i’m entirely blameless, because i obviously am not, but what i mean is that if she understood me a little more from the beginning: me as an 18-year-old who has been brought up in a ~somewhat liberal country in the 21st century, then i wouldnt have to keep lying. and things wouldn’t have gotten so out of hand if i didn’t start breaking more and more boundaries and then finally got so out of hand. and also..guess i was, or rather AM, still quite pissed at the fact that she wanted to make me quit school because of this. and that she thinks i’m ‘sick in the mind’ for thinking that such things ie. smoking, drinking, clubbing, house parties are acceptable. mum, you really need to watch some of those trashy (i admit, jersey shore is too) american films and understand where i’m coming from. there should be a course called ‘modern parenting for azn mums’, and be made compulsory. sigh.. oh and to top it all off, i met with a car accident when i was in the cab yesterday. must be some tough luck i’ve been getting lately. but welllllllllll, on a positive note, we were safe and i am also happy that everything is finally being aired out (but still not completely everything though :/ some things are still better kept as secrets; white lies) #everycloudhasasilverlining and i don’t blame God at all. yep so that’s all. i think this year has been so eventful (for a lack of better word, because it’s not all that positive or momentous) that i could write a book. i am still wondering, is this a normal phase of growth for everyone, or am i simply a ‘bad kid’ that my mother doesn’t deserve of?
k, good night world. you never cease to make me think
