at the end of the day, it’s always back to this line
i am finally back in indo, am still suffering from the hangover of leaving sg for good. back to this space where i have come to realise is indeed my emotional wasteland where i dump all my negativity. and since after promos i havent been posting much because i’ve been ~LIVIN’ IT. but honestly it gets tiring, and obligating. and i hate obligations.
new year’s coming and i think it’s time to start a new blog. this time i’ll go public because i am planning to start my life anew, and become a happygirl and be more transparent. i am sick of leading a double life. like i told matt, i guess a part of me just wants to be well-liked, but i suppose there is a limit to being nice to conceal my insecurities and i have to start living my life. andddddddd i think i have finally learnt how to filter negativity and stop being like a sponge. there is certainly a limit i can do as a friend, even though i always give my very best
i guess that’s all for now. way to go, this post sounds far from skeptic or pseudo intellectual. i need to start accepting myself for who i am, because i dont wanna suffer an identity crisis once again when i’m in US. idk what to expect, so i’m getting used to being alone and mastering the art of self entertainment.
i miss the kids in sg so very much )’:
